Recognizing Impatience as a Symptom of My Mood Episodes

Last Updated: 28 Feb 2022
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When I’m experiencing a mood episode, my patience often goes out the window. Recognizing that is key to keeping myself in recovery.


Hi, this is Carrie Cantwell with bpHope’s online vlogging community, and today I’m going to talk to you about impatience.

When I’m experiencing a bipolar mood episode, my patience often goes out the window. 

Having a normal conversation with someone, which involves both talking AND listening, is sometimes impossible. I interrupt because the person I’m talking to either seems to be speaking too slowly, or I think I already know what they’re going to say, so I try to finish their sentences.

Using something as simple as a zipper requires a bit of patience.  See if this sounds familiar: I’m leaving the house, so I throw on a coat. Connecting the teeth in the bottom of the zipper, and lining everything up feels like the biggest hassle, so I jam everything together and yank the zipper up, only to break it and ruin an expensive piece of clothing.

When I’m cooking with a recipe, I tend to skip or ignore important steps because reading through everything carefully seems too time-consuming. Disregarding directions can result in a ruined meal, and that’s a much bigger waste of time.

My impatience is a big indicator that I’m experiencing an episode. Being aware of it helps me remain vigilant so I can stay in recovery.

Do you recognize anything from my examples? Tell me about it in the comments section below.

My name is Carrie Cantwell with the bpHope’s online vlogging community. Thanks for watching.

About the author
Carrie Cantwell is a graphic artist and writer with bipolar disorder. She’s the author of Daddy Issues: A Memoir, about growing up with a volatile father who had bipolar and whom she lost to suicide, and how accepting her own diagnosis taught her to forgive him. Carrie began her career as a feature writer for an online publication. She then worked as a film and television graphic designer for 16 years. In 2021, she retired from the entertainment industry to focus on mental health advocacy and suicide prevention. Carrie writes for bpHope Blog, bp Magazine, the National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI), the Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance (DBSA), Medical News Today, the Stigma-Free Society, Suicide Awareness Voices of Education (SAVE), and WebMD. Her website is DarknessAndLight.org.

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